[dystopian man]

I have been trying to go to college, taking just one class. It isn't going well this semester. I am on disability and couldn't get to class recently due to not having any money for gas or for the bus. I emailed my professor and he was very understanding. I just had to wait until the beginning of the month and I could use the car.

My car was broken into and my entire cd collection was stolen. The driver's side window was broken and another little window was broken as well. That made me very depressed and I even contemplated suicide. That was how I spent my Thanksgiving.

Because of the break-in it is indefinite as to when i will be able to use the car again since I don't have the money to get it fixed and tinted to match the other windows. I am by far the unluckiest man on the face of the earth. Death is the least of my worries. In fact if i was to die it would be a good thing since i could get some rest and a chance to get away from it all.

I emailed my professor telling him what else is going wrong in my shitty life and i also mentioned to him how i am contemplating suicide. I also asked him if i should just drop out of the class and school altogether since I can't seem to get a break. He didn't get back to me on that and I don't even really care. I started falling behind with the homework assignments and i care more about going to the movies. for instance i am worried if i don't get a chance to see the movie 2012. I love science fiction. I don't really want to work ever again, unless it makes me a billionaire or at least a millionaire. I feel i should be rich at my age. i am 40 and i haven't done a GD thing with my life.

It would be nice to die.

This post has been edited by dystopian man: 09 December 2009 - 10:38 PM